How to start

Mind!
I don't know how else to put this! The day you decide you are worth it and the day you decide OK I want to do it, you wont do it. You can buy all the cool fad diets, go to gyms and "work out". All of that wont work unless you have the mind set and actual real want to be skinny. Before I keep going let me say this, when I started this journey, to me skinny was a size 2, and I so wanted to be that size. I desired this perfect body with no flaws.Well OK lets be real, we are all born different we all have different markings and we all have done things to our selves to create new markings. I now look at things like this I want to be fit, I want to be tone, skinny to me now is weak and UN healthy. Another thing I have to keep in mind, I'm not 16, I am a mother with a larger frame. I will never be this little tiny girl. Doesn't matter how much body weight I lose. I must look and act my age, 27 is an amazing age. I am at my prime! I no longer need the bar, or odd social scene I can dress fun, flashy and pretty and not look like I'm 19, but also not like my dear grandmother.  So where do women like us shop, how do we feel sexy how do we fit in! Because once our body's inside start feeling good so will we, and we will want to dress the outside as we feel on in the inside. This task for me has been hard, I have no fashion sense so as you drop sizes maybe shop with girlfriends to help re dress you! and a side note TRY EVERYTHING ON BEFORE BUYING IT! every store size is different! DON'T look at size look at how it looks on u! you can be size 26 or size 4 and if you buy the wrong size clothes you can look nasty either way. I have the issue of  buying to big size clothes because anyone who has battled weight for a long time knows the mirror doesn't always show you what is really there. Alot of the time I see no change in what I look like, when others stop and go WOW how much weight have you lost!
MIND!! MIND!! MIND! How our heads makes us doing such silly things! So are you ready to lose weight? are you ready mentally? What demons do you face when you think about losing weight!